Today started well... At the soccer game E scored 3 goals. Caden scored one and then moved to goalie where he blocked multiple goal attempts. Both boys passed the ball to teammates and played hard.
This afternoon Adam took Caden and E out shopping to get new clothes for E and new shoes. They had a good time and were able to get what they needed.
Tonight we had friends over. That was great! The kids played well together and enjoyed getting to know new friends. Late this evening though things took a turn. One of our kids has a much bigger temper than we expected and we were never told anything about. Tonight that temper turned on one of our kids and was not pretty. It is SO hard to have someone hurt your child. It's even harder when you are doing everything you can for this kid and your own kids are sacrificing so much. I'm not going to lie here... My blood was boiling! Then he was disrespectful as I asked what happened and that frustrated me even more! All I could do in the moment was send him to his room... Now one of my kids is afraid and that is not at all what I want. Our job is to protect our kids and be their safe place! But then there's the grace side, the teaching side, the understanding that deep hurts cause this anger. Oh my heart aches... I've never thought of myself as a quitter but goodness! I know that many foster families deal with much bigger issues but my mama heart is so torn. I need sleep, lots of prayer, and some real clarity. Fostering is hard. Following Jesus is sometimes hard too... Lord show us the way and the plan so we can follow you.
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